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I didnt think it would happen like this.
I cannot believe this is how it happened, but it has. I dont know how to react to this and havnt been able to have a single reaction It has affected me in episodes. It hits me while im driving, it hit me after I read a some harsh thoughts. But all the other times im fine, because I have an incredible group of people in my life. I thank them so much fot the support they have given me while this has happened. Some may be selfish at times, some may be ignorant at times, some may be complete assholes. When it comes down to it though they love me and are going to try their best to make me feel okay about the situation. I still believe im a good person. Im still happy with the person I see in the mirror. Iv changed in too many good ways to call myself a bad person. Im sorry, because I know you will most likely read this. This was a doing of both of us. it cannot be blamed on a single one of us. I dont want to be a stranger with you, but I also dont want to see you with random people because I cannot handle that situation. But I cant control you, and I know I should have never tried and that was my mistake. I wish I could tell you everything directly but I cant. Not now.
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I hit a 225 pound Squat clean.
Such a milestone for myself. I hit a plateau and was stuck there for a long time, but after all my hard work I finally hit it. It felt so god damn good.
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Yesterday this man did the incredible
His name is Chris Spealer, and this has been my hero ever since I first heard about him. Whats so special about him? Well lets start with the fact that he is five foot five, then lets talk about how the fact that he weighs only 153 pounds. He is a small guy when it comes down to it, but he is alot more than that. He is such an inspirational individual. Every workout he goes into he doesnt think about how much weight he has to life, he doesnt think about how much more it is then he is. He just does it and pours his heart into every single WOD. Chris Spealer broke a world record last weekend. He destroyed Diane in 1:52. Thats 21-15-9 rep scheme of deadlifts at 225 pounds and handstand pushups. More over going into the last event he was singled out. They said that he was done. That he would not make it to the games this year. Through all the doubt though this man pushed through and did the unbelievable. He raced through the workout and tied for second to make it back into the top three. He did it for himself but at the same time he did it for all of us athlete watching him. He left me inspired, I was just anxiously waiting to hear what was going on, if he made it. If we were gonna have the Games without Spealer. When i heard that he made it. I lost it and i was screaming and yelling of excitement to hear that Chris Spealer was indeed going to make it to his 6th Crossfit games. I just keep reading all of the articles about how Spealer made it and everytime I read one, everytime I watch a video, I cant stand but shed a tear. This man has instilled faith into me that it doesnt matter what age I am, it doesnt matter what Size i am, that it doesnt matter that everything might be against me. That I can do it, that if i try and put my heart into it I will succeed. This is what I want, and this is what im gonna accomplish. I want to compete at his Side. I want to show the world what Im made of, and you can believe that I will. Iv been getting better, iv been perfecting my movements. I know I can do this and next year I WILL BE at the 2013 Crossfit Games Regionals event. I will make it and no one will stand between me and regionals. Iv changed my whole life, my pattern of my everyday living and most of all I have been able to get some great coaching from some of the most genuine people I have ever met.
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Yet another post about Crossfit. Crossfit to me has become the only lifestyle that I completely enjoy. I love everything about it and it has change my life for the better. I have now experienced 5 months of sobriety and I have had the opportunity to make friends with some good People. The coaches at Urban Warfit, and the Coaches at Core Crossfit are some incredible people and I admire them so much for their genuineness. They care for us not as customers, or as one of their athletes, but as one of their friends. They want us to meet our goals and they want to help us reach that goal. They want us to reach our dreams. These last few months iv attended these gyms already I have made some friends who i will remember for the rest of my life. Met an olympic level Swimmer, surgeons, researchers focusing on the landscape of Mars, a family of Crossfitters, been there to experience some of the first weeks of a baby’s life. Its incredible how much Crossfit has brought together this group of people who would never interact wiith each other in any other occasion. I really care about these people, they inspire me to be the best that i can be.
People say Crossfit does not work, that it doesnt do anything for anyone. It does not build strength nor does it for anything other for crossfit. Well if thats the case tell me how a married couple that both attend classes at my gym have each lost 30 pounds, in the time of a month. How a swimmer after implementing Crossfit into her workout regime not only qualified for the Crossfit Games regional event, but in the same day was so close to breaking an Arizona state record and the only person who beat her was a veteran Olympic athlete. Personally the atmosphere and the community is the reason Crossfit is such a powerful sport, it makes you feel better and it inspires you to be the most that you can be. Crossfit changes life on a day to day basis.
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That moment
When your trying to lift your weight. You can’t, you learn proper form. That weight becomes weightless.
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My friend Jacob Marinez
Is doing the Crossfit Open. He is the man who got me into Crossfit hes the one that i promised i would make it to the games with. I told him id be there with him. He is Currently Number 1 in the southwest region. Its god damn incredible he works so god damn hard. I took two months off where he busted his ass off. He deserves this. He wants me to catch up. He wants me to be his number one competition again. Hes gonna start training me. He wants me to be better than the person I was the day before. Childhood rivalries will be shown to the world. I will succeed. I will push my body past its limits and i will get there soon. Iv done the open 2 times now. I need to do it one more time. I can do better i know i can. I doubted myself yesterday when i hit 70. I was doing so well but for some reason i started doubting myself. Im better than that, i must never doubt myself. Im giving it one more shot, and hopefully i can hit 13 more reps. I wasted time by resting.
